Trip to Dr Henry Cheng

On Monday, Mama booked an emergency appointment with Dr Henry because she didn't feel my lil sister's movement for some days. Mui Mui will usually flutter in Mama's tummy when she starts to eat. But no matter how much she ate during those few days, Mama just simply couldn't feel the "butterflies in the stomach" feeling.

Then as she was in the office taking a break. She was mentally focusing on names for Mui Mui and alas, my lil sister gave a few flips and kicks! Mama instantly felt bad and happy at the same time. Happy, of course to know Mui Mui is well. Bad because she realised, perhaps, all Mui Mui wanted was Mama to think about her.

Mama had been so loaded with work and having to take care of my needs that thinking of Mui Mui was almost close to rare. Unlike when she was having me. I was always and constantly on her mind since conception. She talked to me (most of the time in her head while travelling, shopping, waiting for someone....) She felt guilty for giving Mui Mui so less a time, even if it was just to "think" about her.

So Mama said a little prayer to God for Mui Mui that she will not feel unwanted, left out and rejected. Mama always tells people that "This one is a compromised one" because Papa wanted 3 kids, and Mama, just one. But this lesson taught her to retract her words. No child of God is made by accident or out of a compromise. We are all willed by God to existence (well, even if some parents claimed otherwise). We are wanted and desired by our heavenly Father.

So Mama didn't want Mui Mui to feel dejected and promise to think of her more often from now on. And that includes me! I pray for Mui Mui every night before I sleep, "Dear God....bless...baby...mama stomach (meaning, bless baby in Mama's stomach)"

To Mui Mui: Papa, Mama and I love you! Jesus too! Grow well, strong and healthy!

Oh, and for sure, Dr Henry said all is well with her too after the scan. Thank God!