How can one love too many?

I was sitting on the bed with a pail vomiting endlessly one night when my sweet little angel came over and patted on my arm whispering, "Love, love, Mama." She gave that sympathetic look and of course, didn't fail to imitate a new interesting scene she had never seen before---someone vomiting. I was both touched and amused.

On occasions when she saw me vomiting again, she would come over to stroke my arm, saying the sweetest words like, "Love love Mama" and "Sorry, Mama". (Think "sorry" to her is the most empathetic word she could use, though not really appropriate for the situation. Or did she really feel sorry for me??)

She meant the world to me and my heart just overflows with so much love for her, even though in its imperfect way at times. Somehow, I wonder if I still have anymore to pour out for another kid. I just can't fathom. How did some parents shower love to so many kids and claim they love them all the same? I really wonder. It's beyond me for now because I can only associate God as my greatest love and I can't imagine to love someone else just the same as I do to Him.

Then I remember God (naturally, I just mentioned Him). He has MANY children. And He loves us all the same, doesn't He? I grew up singing the song, "Jesus loves the little children....all the children of the world...". Now it brings new meaning to me. I cannot imagine how I can love another kid just like I love Evangelia. But I know God can love through me. That's all I need to know--that there is always a well of love I can go to to draw love and all that I need to pour out to my children.

And I thank God for Evangelia for being a blessing to my heart. When I vomited till I tear or cry, she would ask me to remove my spectacles so she could touch my tears. I didn't wanna hide the agony from her. I wanted her to know the process (well, hopefully when she's older and her younger sibling gets naughty, she's my best witness to the words, "Shen Ni Heng Xin Ku! So, please be good!" "It's tough giving birth to you"). No, seriously. I believe a child can learn to know that even parents who always give endless instructions and disciplines, seemingly in superiority, are but humans too. And I want her to grow up having empathy for people.